[He didn't expect Zaveid to know who that was, either, so he's not surprised. But what comes next--
-- what comes next means everything. It's like the last piece of the puzzle snapping into place. Atakk turning into a hellion, the promise of staying free from malevolence, the dragon hatching out of the wartorn battlefield.
His friend losing a loved one...]
I'm so sorry
[He isn't sure why he's apologizing, but he is. Sorey feels at once so helpless, as if he could've done anything to spare Zaveid that pain.]
Zaveid, I'm going to keep you safe. I promise I won't let that happen. I won't let you turn into a hellion or a dragon.
[Even if it costs him everything. If he can't make a world here or in the past where they can live, then he isn't trying hard enough.]
[He's pretty sure he was Zaveid's vessel, too. Since he remembers fighting against Maltran... yeah.]
I remember learning what the true power of a Shepherd is. also, Mikleo and I were able to piece together what I did during the fight against the beast man who reeked of malevolence.
[The Shepherd was carved into murals, but a thousand years is a long time in terms of human history. For something to endure that long-- gosh, and he's the first one in ages, or so people kept saying in his memories.]
all I can tell you about the Shepherd is what they can do. I can't tell you the history of it, because I don't know... not yet.
but as the Shepherd, my job is to purify hellions. and to bridge the gap between humans and seraphim. I was Lailah's vessel, and Mikleo's, and I was probably yours and... the other girl's. I don't remember much about you two yet.
for some reason me and the Lord of Calamity were opposed. maybe it's just because of all his malevolence, but I'm not sure.
I'm still having a hard time accepting it. I really hate myself right now. I feel like I shouldn't be texting this but even after telling Mikleo I'm having trouble talking about it sorry I'm a coward
[This is kind of on the scale of astronomically terrible. But it's Zaveid... maybe he'll... try to understand.
He trusts Zaveid, he decides.]
the beast man I was talking about after the battle I
[Practically dragging his sword across the ground, his steps slow and limping, he made his way to the throne.]
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-- what comes next means everything. It's like the last piece of the puzzle snapping into place. Atakk turning into a hellion, the promise of staying free from malevolence, the dragon hatching out of the wartorn battlefield.
His friend losing a loved one...]
I'm so sorry
[He isn't sure why he's apologizing, but he is. Sorey feels at once so helpless, as if he could've done anything to spare Zaveid that pain.]
Zaveid, I'm going to keep you safe.
I promise I won't let that happen.
I won't let you turn into a hellion or a dragon.
[Even if it costs him everything. If he can't make a world here or in the past where they can live, then he isn't trying hard enough.]
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thanks
I appreciate it
[....]
I'm human here, I think. I'm still not sure how this works, how any of this is possible.
But I learned some things when I was in the labyrinth that might be relevant.
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if you become a seraph, I'll do whatever I can to help you.
I didn't learn anything in the Library. I asked Mahoney for answers and she couldn't tell me anything, and Mr. Baroque was just security.
I remembered a couple things though. big things.
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What'd you remember?
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[He's pretty sure he was Zaveid's vessel, too. Since he remembers fighting against Maltran... yeah.]
I remember learning what the true power of a Shepherd is. also, Mikleo and I were able to piece together what I did during the fight against the beast man who reeked of malevolence.
do you know anything about bullets made of mana?
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Yes, actually, I do.
I had a gun that could shoot bullets made of mana, though I couldn't tell you where I got it from.
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you were all fine though. thank goodness.
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I'm glad everyone was fine.
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[shit's complicated.]
do you know anything about the Shepherd? or the... Lord of Calamity?
that last one only popped up when I remembered all of this, but I haven't been able to figure out what it really means.
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They're titles that are passed down, and it's been that way for the better part of one thousand years.
From the names alone, I'd wager the Lord of Calamity probably doesn't get it from being an upstanding guy.
[That last line is obviously a joke, though.]
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[The Shepherd was carved into murals, but a thousand years is a long time in terms of human history. For something to endure that long-- gosh, and he's the first one in ages, or so people kept saying in his memories.]
all I can tell you about the Shepherd is what they can do. I can't tell you the history of it, because I don't know... not yet.
but as the Shepherd, my job is to purify hellions. and to bridge the gap between humans and seraphim. I was Lailah's vessel, and Mikleo's, and I was probably yours and... the other girl's. I don't remember much about you two yet.
for some reason me and the Lord of Calamity were opposed. maybe it's just because of all his malevolence, but I'm not sure.
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He has a lot to think about.]
you might be onto something. but I don't remember either way, so...
[ugh]
there's something else but I'm not sure I should talk about it.
I think you won't like it.
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What is it?
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I really hate myself right now.
I feel like I shouldn't be texting this but even after telling Mikleo I'm having trouble talking about it
sorry I'm a coward
[This is kind of on the scale of astronomically terrible. But it's Zaveid... maybe he'll... try to understand.
He trusts Zaveid, he decides.]
the beast man I was talking about
after the battle I
[Practically dragging his sword across the ground, his steps slow and limping, he made his way to the throne.]
I killed him
it was to end his suffering
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I'm sorry.
That couldn't have been easy. Doing, or remembering.
I'm not really sure what to say about something like that; it's pretty upsetting stuff, isn't it?
But I'm still your friend.
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but I had to
and it set you all free
if I had to make that choice again I don't think I'd kill him. not with everyone here to help. I don't know the full story either way
you're a good friend.
it's kind of selfish considering what I just said I did but I'm glad you don't think I'm a monster
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I'm all about finding another way to end a conflict, there are many, many cases where I think it's wrong, terrible.
But sometimes, ultimately, you don't have much of a choice.
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I think I'm going to get rid of my katanas. anything with a sharp edge I'll just donate to the dojo
maybe that's why you didn't fight with a traditional weapon too
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Sorry. I just remembered something.
I had a girlfriend. Maybe we were even married? I don't know. She transformed into a dragon, and someone I knew, someone I trusted, killed her.
It was probably the only way. There's no coming back from that, I don't think.
I guess what I'm saying is I don't blame you for wanting to get rid of your weapons. I really wish I hadn't remembered something so awful.
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I'm so sorry. I'm sorry talking to me brought it up.
[Someone he trusted killed her...? That's even worse.]
if someone hurt Mikleo, I'm not sure I'd be as strong as you're being right now.
why did so many horrible things happen on our world? is that why we're here?
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It seems like something we all have in common, doesn't it? It's a long line of tragedy, without much reason attached to it.
But then again, it wouldn't matter much even if there was something behind it all.