he was suffering. even after I defeated him, he was still suffering. I couldn't purify him like I could purify the other monsters. it was the only way and... he knew it. he was counting on it because he wanted me to be just like him.
[Reading over that again, it doesn't seem to make much sense without context, but it's hard to explain when he doesn't have all the context himself.]
I don't think I could do it again. I threw up after I remembered
[There's a pause on his end. That's...really messed up. He doesn't understand so many bits, but it sounds like he had to put a guy out of his misery. Out of mercy.
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[Reading over that again, it doesn't seem to make much sense without context, but it's hard to explain when he doesn't have all the context himself.]
I don't think I could do it again. I threw up after I remembered
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fuck man.
sorry.
[What do you even say to that??]
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I told you this because I want you to realize what I realized.
we're not the people we used to be. the things that happened don't have to happen again.
we can reach out for help when we couldn't do that before. there are people with powers and ideas and viewpoints that we didn't have access to.
if we all work together, we can change it. we can change everything.
I'm sure of it.
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thanks for that.
ill keep that in mind?
but right now
even if it was just a vision
i think i just need to hear from my dad.
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[Noah seems calmer than before, so...]
um, if you give me his name, I can call the hospital for you?
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hospital only gives information to family anyway.
[They may be talking about two different hospitals]
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then I can talk to the police department instead. it's best to cover all our bases.
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i know where he is.
hes not even in recolle
just let me handle it.
[He appreciates you Sorey but you need to be at social link level 15 to have him allow you to handle dealings with dad]
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all right. I know you can handle it
but let me know if I can help you with anything ok?
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[And then about 30 minutes later...]
hes ok.
false alarm.
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I mean I figured he'd be okay but I was still worried too.
are YOU gonna be okay???
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sorry to have gotten all freaked out on you.
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don't worry about it. you're fine! and sorry if I sounded pushy, I just wanted to go through all your options.
sometimes it's helpful to build plans in your head just in case something like that happens.
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i get it.
thanks.